I had a bad food night last Thursday night. I admit that it involved Taco Bell, which is bad, but not the bad part for me. I currently plan my eating around the Weight Watchers system and juggle my points so that every Thursday I can eat Taco Bell and stay within my allotted food allowance. Judge me all you want; it makes me supremely happy.
No, the bad food part for me was the Wheat Thins. I have a particular lack of self-control for crunchy salty things (like Wheat Thins, tortilla chips or plain Stacy’s pita chips). My lack of self-control is so bad that generally I do not purchase these items any more. I do not welcome them into my house because I know once they are there, I will eat them until they are gone. There is no portion control when it comes to a Hefty-bag size of pita chips from Costco. I had made the fatal flaw of purchasing a regular sized (thank goodness) box of Wheat Thins last weekend (surprised that it lasted this long). I told myself they were for my son, for his school snack (he loves them as well). But in my heart, I knew I would eat that box. And I did. I hate that I ate that box and I know it is not assisting me in my weight loss attempt.
I know I am not the only person with this type of problem. I know for other people it is a different kind of food. For one of my co-workers, it is Doritos. For my significant other, it is butter pecan ice cream. I know chocolate is a problem for lots of folks. I have tried to find healthier, portion-controlled substitutes to satisfy my salty, crunchy cravings. Popchips in an individual serving sized bag is the perfect solution. It offers just enough, but not too much. And that will do it for me. That single-portion bag prevents me from opening another bag. In my mind, if I open another one, I’ll have had TWO bags and that sounds bad. But I have no problems eating three-fourths of an entire box of Wheat Thins (approximately 16 servings). There is not much rational thought behind that.
Post Wheat Thins box inhalation; I am not beating myself up over it. I acknowledge it is a set-back and that I made a poor food choice. I will not let this sway my mind into thinking this small step backwards should push me completely over the edge. I will not listen to the little voice that says the small backwards step means it is time to give up completely; saying, “You have already blown it so it doesn’t matter what you eat.” I know that little voice. It is there for me when times are good and when they are bad. It tells me since I lost a couple of pounds, I should celebrate with a lovely bottle of red and maybe some nachos. Sometimes it is hard not to listen to that voice, that voice that loves Wheat Thins. To me, what the voice shows is that we are all capable of being our greatest ally in our efforts to get healthy and our worst enemy. You just have to know when to listen.
Kimberly Click likes to imagine herself as a well-received author but in reality is a small-time blogger whose hit count rarely enters into the double digits. When not writing, she likes to spend time with the most wonderful 7-year-old on the planet, her son, and his ever-patient dad. Originally from New York, she has made Hawaii her home for over 10 years.